One Year

One Year. One whole year since my doctor pronounced us infertile and changed our world forever. Two years of hoping and trying for a baby. 27 cycles. 5 rounds of IUI. Months of various medications. At least a dozen self administered shots. A ridiculous amount of at home ovulation and pregnancy tests. Too many uncomfortable …

Messy Middle

I keep waiting for the happy ending. The triumphant victory of two hard won pink lines that leads to joy with our loved ones and concludes with a gorgeous baby of our own. It hasn't happened yet. We are still in the middle. The messy middle of no. The never ending cycle of grief. The …

Runaway

Did you ever run away from home as a kid? Maybe your feelings were hurt or you got in trouble. Maybe you were overwhelmed by just how big life was when you were so small. It's practically a rite of passage. I asked my mom for a good story about me running away, and I …

Sliver of Hope

Why doesn’t this ever get any easier?  How do you get through the tough times?  My biggest fear is that this will never happen for me. To say that I understood when friends shared these concerns with me is an understatement. Being able to honestly say, "I know how you feel" in this situation is …